SPM? What is that??

Today is the day where we receive our SPM results. Today shall be a historical day in our lifetime.

I arrived school at around 11.30am. Well I have to say that our school is a bit slow as we have to wait until nearly 12pm before we can take our SPM result.

Anyway, when the time finally comes, the feeling and tension I was having is hard to be described. Although my face didn't show any expressions, my heart was pumping fast while lining up, the waiting is actually..exhilarating. When these feelings clash together, I felt that I was going to have a heart failure, seriously.

There goes the queue and it's finally my turn. My teacher searched for my slip, and said "Congratulations! Full straight A!" to me. WTF, I got nerved and thought I got 11A1, but no lar, I'm not that pro to get it. I could see it at my first glance through the slip that I got an A2 for my BM as it's at the top of the list. I failed, in terms of getting full straight A1..
Anyways, I can't get any prouder about myself for scoring this kind of result. Everything was out of my expectations, especially the 3 language subjects. Was luck on my side again?

Today, some unlucky ones might get scolded by their parents for not scoring the amount of As they required, I felt sorry for not being able to give any appropriate advice or help regarding this matter, just hope that they can get over it soon. On the other hand, those lucky ones might get something as their reward. Well, they get their rewards always anyway(I was referring to the rich ones).

For me, it's just the same. My parents didn't rant on or praise me. Never mind, I didn't study for that. I'm most probably not going to receive any rewards. Never mind, I know my family condition and won't ask for more. Without these kind of "motivations", what actually drove me to take this exam so seriously? My future? Or, is it because of you?

I don't know. What I know about now is that applying for scholarships for private colleges are easier than before. One A1 less, still ok la, more choice, but still not the most. Now I just have to consider about entering which college to further my studies.

Say, I have complicated feelings about my BM result. I hate it because it ruined my 11A1 dream. But, I have to love it because it saved lots of my money as I have made deals with many friends that I have to give them a big treat or buy them a laptop if I ever scored 11A1. It saved my money but I have to compromise my better valued scholarships, which means, my dad is the one going to suffer instead of me(my dad will be the victim for both situations actually. Zzz).

Cheers!

*Special Thanks*
My teachers for their teaching and guidance all these years.
My parents for creating me and spending money to educate me.
My friends for their help in my homework all these years.
Anyone who has ever despised me before.(?)

The judgement day has come

This post should have been written earlier today, if not because of the sudden heavy thunder rain that poses a threat to my computer made up of delicate electronic components.

Say, I can't recall when is the last time the rain falls so heavily like just now. The sky is so dark when it should still be bright, small ice pieces falling from the sky, the thunder is strong and non-stop, the wind is blowing as if there's a typhoon happening here, and I mean it. Although I can't see roofs flying in the sky, but it is most certainly going to blow away stickman like me.

At first, I thought this heavy rain is going to save me from facing the SPM results I'm going to receive tomorrow. But obviously it didn't work as I'm still writing cr@p here. Hahaha...fail.

Anyway, I'm shifting back to the topic now. Every student that has taken their SPM 2008 should have already known that the results will be released tomorrow(duh). We will be going back to our school to take our results(duhz). Someone might scream with happiness, someone might cry, someone might even not bother to show any expressions.

Tomorrow will be the day for me to decide whether I should continue my studies with A-level or Form 6. Anyway, I hope to get as much As as I can, of course, preferably more than 10A1s, but that's not going to happen. I'm not going to pray for it because I never pray during the normal days. If I do it now it just looks like "临时抱佛脚" and usually it doesn't work.

In a nutshell, it's the result that matters. I have tried my best in the exam, even it's not good compared to myself during the trial exams, but it's over. As mentioned in Ah Gong's latest post with his pro philosophies, if you knows how to feel satisfied, you will be satisfied with everything no matter how good or bad the thing is. For now, I wish every SPM 2008 students will get their ideal results tomorrow. Wish me luck too! Hope I still can see all of you after tomorrow ;)

It's March already!

It wasn't 29th of February yesterday, because this year wasn't a leap year. It wasn't 30th of February today, because this date has never existed! God, I've completely forgotten about the date if I have not checked the calendar today!

Time flies, I've been living my idle dreaming days for like, 4 months? Good, that's 4 months of time wasted doing and gaining nothing, well, except for the "heightened" reflex from intensive gaming...In this 4 months, my brain is blank, everything learnt just to face my SPM has gone to nowhere. So how am I going to survive the high-level education?

And since it's March now, our SPM results are most probably going to be released at the second week of the month, as I read from the newspaper. I've yet to make up my mind about the course that I shall take. A-Level or Form 6? Each of them has their pros and cons. For the former choice, you study at colleges, which is a new environment, but you will have to pay a high tuition fee for it. While the latter is free, you still study in your boring secondary school, and are still bound to the good old school rules.

Still, my choice to take which course will fully depend on my SPM results. Good results = more scholarships, so that I have more choice to study in private institutions. As for the opposite, I will have to stay in my good old secondary school to study Form 6 and take STPM in the future.

I have no issues with both of them actually, since both of the Pre-U courses are widely recognised in the world, only if you obtained good results in either of them, of course. My dream is to study in Singapore universities, with grants and scholarships. That will postpone at least 7 years of time for me from joining the s2pid NS by the gov'ment.

A-Level/Form 6: 1 & 1/2 years. Engineering course: 4 years. Bond attached from grant(work in Singapore): 3 years. So, I will be 27 or 28 years old by the time I graduate from university and "detached" the bond. And by that time I might be able to get some disease that can help me skip NS! LOL. Hell, I won't curse myself to get diseases just to skip this programme. Just hope that this dream comes true and I can continue to work overseas until I'm 35 years old.

But wait a minute, I did say everything has it's pros and cons, didn't I? If this dream ever comes true, this means that I will have to be a single dude until I'm 35 years old before I can come back here to find a girlfriend. I don't think I can afford the high "maintenance fee" of Singapore girls le. ><"

(P.S.: Again, not criticising Malaysian girls for having low "maintenance fee", but I simply like Malaysian Chinese girls more ;P)