Disastrous JPA interview

I've done it again, there's no doubt that I'm VERY bad in communicative skills.

Today was a big day for me. I had to attend an interview held by JPA in PICC. This was the first formal interview I'd gone through so I wore long sleeve tee, a tie, a pair of slacks and a pair of leather shoes. And I combed a nerdy hair, which is an upgraded version of my usual messy hair.

I arrived half an hour earlier as my interview starts at 2pm. The feeling was never any better than taking my SPM result, in fact it's way worse. First, everyone has to go to a whiteboard to find their name and sign on it before going upstairs. There were many panels, and I was at Panel 8, which is the same panel with a schoolmate of mine.

And there you wait until about 1.45pm before the gate was opened so the interviewees can go in and wait outside their respective panel's room. Wait for your turn to be called to hand in your documents to the staffs, then you will be given a number tag and a piece of paper for you to write out the points during discussions. I was the first group to be interviewed. Together with me was a Chinese girl, a Malay girl and 2 Malay boys.

Finally we were called to enter the interviewer's room. There were 3 interviewers, which comprised of 2 Malay man and 1 Chinese woman. We greeted them and we were asked to introduce ourselves in BM in 2 minutes. Ok at least I prepared for this, but eventually I talked too much and was cut down by the interviewer and he just wanted to know what course did I chose, but wtf? I think I didn't talk for even 1 minute yet. Zzz

Fine, the intro section ends and things just got worse. The next section will the group discussion conducted in English. We were given 2 topics:
1) Consumption of junk food is growing among children. Discuss.
2) Which 3 country would you like to work in? Why?
I stuttered all the way long, my mind was messed and I can't voice out my opinions in an orderly manner. Besides, I was the last person to talk for both topics. So I was left with limited choice as most easy points were already voiced out by my group members.

The interview session was followed by another group discussion but this time it was conducted in BM. My body's own special pogative/nesitive feedback mechanism is working at it's best during this period. Why some unknown facts again? Act pro when I look pathetic? Allow me to explain. I call it pogative/nesitive because it's a great fusion of both positive feedback and negative feedback mechanism. The negative feedback mechanism causes my body to shiver like hell in an attempt to regain heat, whereas the positive feedback mechanism causes my body temperature to continue dropping when the surrounding temperature is already that cold. With this "revolutionary" feedback mechanism, my body shivers to lose heat, which further inhibits my already worse understanding and communicative skills. There's no cure to this symptom as of today. Period.

Back to the story. With my pogative/nesitive feedback mechanism it's almost impossible for me to talk any more, don't even say thinking. Besides, BM is my fatal spot. Expect me to be stunned right at the spot. Anyway, I did crap something out to make me look less a phail, just that the 2 Malay interviewers looked like they were going to fall asleep from my speech.

Then finally, it's the ending. They allowed us to ask some questions related to this scholarship. My group members obviously had many questions to ask, everyone of them. I tried so hard and finally I squeezed out a question. What a huge success. Yay!

And so it ended after that. We thanked our interviewers and walked out of the room. The whole process took 1 hour which was longer then we expected. My group members looked so happy, while I felt that I'm a phail. Whatever, I could only blame myself for being an introvert, idiot, n00b. It's too late to change anything. But looking at the bright side, future disappointment has been eliminated since I didn't have any hope of securing the scholarship from that point on.

Overall, the interviewers were good enough to not headshot me right at the spot, it's just me that shot myself in the leg. So friends, if you're going for an interview, your calmness will be the key to your success. Always equip yourselves with the current issues happening around the world, and of course, sharpen your mind and communicative skills. Sorry, I'm still too depressed to give any good advice here, and I think I'm not eligible to give as well.

To interviewees from my group, I'm perhaps the noobest person you'll see in your life. So, remember my n00b face, remember how phail I am during the interview, and call me n00b if you meet me by any chance.

Anyway, I hope those shortlisted candidates who will be having their interview for the next few days, good luck!

P.S.: I'm aware of what day is today, but given the situation now I just can't do it, so read the whole crap passage without feeling being cheated.

Kthxbye.