Time flies

Sorry for not updating for the past few weeks (although I don't know if there's anyone reading this), everything's gotten pretty tight since college life started. There wasn't anything interesting happened since then and so I allocated very few time into blogging.

Say, I can't believe that we have reached the end of May. It's been 4 weeks (take it as a month) since I've studied in ICSJ, now there will be 10 weeks left before the end of first semester. For some reason, I'm complaining that time passed slowly in class, but then ironically, looking back at it, 4 weeks have gone in a blink of eye. And until now I'm still not able to pick up the pace to study..fail.

The beginning of A-Level is basically reviewing what we have learnt during Form 4 and 5, but in a more detailed manner, such as electron arrangements in Chemistry, calculating uncertainties in Physics, for Pure Maths & Stats...they are still around the same as Add Maths until now. So theoretically, I should not have any problems with these subjects for now, except Economics in which I have to start from scratch, but that's not the case though. For 5 bloody months, my brain had been rusting until everything learnt in Form 4 and 5 had been wiped out almost completely. That's the cruelty of the reality.

It's really a pain in the neck for studying that far away and not living in their hostel. Everyday my dad & I have to leave home as soon as 6.30am so that we will not get caught in traffic jams that will give both of us problems. Travelling back home after class using KTM is a more painful experience. I have to walk around 20 minutes from ICSJ to the Subang Jaya KTM station. Global warming has taken the toll on me. The heat and sunshine is a killer, expect me to get tanned after graduating.

But that's just a small portion of the suffering compared to the time wasted in waiting AND riding the train itself. After my timetable changed, it's more sucky compared to the old one as there are now 2 days that classes will end at 5pm. Heck I didn't even join any societies yet. 5pm onwards is a nightmare for public transportation commuters, as many people flock to these transportations. Usually, the Rawang-Seremban route train is always so packed that you have no space to stand and no air to breathe. If there are delays, then you really have to wait for the next 2 trains before you can actually board it. If there's a person with swine flu aboard, then GG. The average time used to travel from SJ back to Serdang is one & a half hour, that is, without major delays. Mostly I'll have a back-ache after disembarking, and there would be damn less free time for me everyday...So for those who got caught in the traffic jam in their own cars is actually nothing compared to this situation. Sadly, I'll have to endure this nightmare throughout the duration of the programme..Anyway, looking at the bright side, if you are packed by cute chicks in the train, that would be much worthy to "suffer" that =D. But so far, I just had only once :(

After a month there, I should have(again) made some friends there. But no much joy. Untalkative and dumb person like me will never make many friends in a new environment "without any existing friends" there together. I'm so successful in isolating myself. Though I do talk with my classmates but when they suddenly make fun of me or ask me something, I'll always respond in a retarded way. Retarded as in replying or giving a response after at least 2 seconds. Before I can do anything they've already moved on *sigh*. By the way, most people are using English now, what can be expected from me as a person who doesn't have any second language?

Just pray hard that every situation above really does improve with time. If it doesn't, I'll have to change myself. Time management's the only way to achieve it. Can anyone kill my addiction towards the internet? I'll be very grateful to you.

*Update(31/5): Made some modifications due to the fact that I posted this in a rush yesterday.

PILN results released soon

For those who applied for the JPA's PILN Scholarship, including me, this is the time you've been waiting for. I've just visited eSILA and saw the announcement that the results will be released at 3pm tomorrow (8th May).

I know I wasn't going to get it, so forget it. But if I do get it for some reason, I'll give my loyal readers (which I highly doubt if there's any) a big treat for sure. Mark my words.

As I learnt from Economics, resource is scarce but human wants are unlimited, in this case, scholarships are scarce but applicants are near unlimited. I can't wish everyone to get this scholarship, sadly. Therefore, I can only wish my friends good luck in securing the best scholarship in our country. J/K la, just wish whoever that reads my blog good luck la. Of course, I'm not going to leave myself out, a small chance is still a chance. ;p

Time is scarce but my wants to play are still unlimited. So, ciao.

Update: fail, it's changed to 5pm now. Is it my mistake or what?

Update 2: they made an empty promise, given us false hope, reminds me of the fcuk TMNUT. The hell with it, MALAYSIA BOLEH!

Update 3: Rejected. Feel free to LC me.

...marked the beginning of my new life

As expected I didn't have a good night sleep today, but enough for me to stay awake until now. Have to sleep very early form now on, or else I'm not going to make it on time after completing everything.

Well I've met 3 lecturers who will be teaching us Chemistry, Maths, and Physics until the end of our course. My class consists 9 students, but 1 was absent today, and according to my Chemistry lecturer that the students might increase throughout the week as late enrollment is still in progress.

Sadly, no one actually talked to me (no doubt) and I'm still not good in taking the initiative to talk (screw me). In such a small class, if I still fail to make friends with all of them, I can most probably vanish from this world. Ok don't say until that serious, let's say...eliminated.

Anyway, travelling with the inefficient KTM is no doubt a pain in the a...ok neck. It took me almost 2 hours to get back from Subang station to Serdang station. Walaueh, the delays were really pissing me, and I think everyone, off. The delays caused like 3 trains of passengers to be "canned" into a train. Everyone squeezed into the small pathetic train, and I was "sardine-d" on my way back just now, by a bunch of dudes, sad. I can't imagine if I have to rely on this KTM everyday if my dad doesn't send me to ICSJ's doorstep everyday. I sound spoilt, but I really were to take KTM to Subang everyday I will most probably receive enough warning letters to bar me from the final exams within a month.

Suddenly, I have the thoughts of going back SMJK Yu Hua to study Form 6. Heck, human is a living being of contradiction. Paired together with a pathetic guy like me, it will be doubly pathetic. Suddenly again, I remembered that I said "Life ends after SPM" as opposed to "Life starts after SPM" said by my English teacher from secondary school. Ahh..those nostalgic moments...Fine, no more regrets from now on. CHIONGZZ

The end of my holidays...

My college life in INTI College Subang Jaya (ICSJ) starts tomorrow, have to get used to a new environment again. A lot of questions ran through my mind: What will happen tomorrow? Who will be my classmates? Will I dare to talk and make new friends? And most importantly, is the money spent on me worth it? It's just like back to those good old school days, I'm always feeling anxious + nervous. I'm still myself after all.

I think I won't be able to sleep tonight because it's always like this, and today I woke up late by the way..My classes starts at 8am everyday..assuming that transportation takes 1 & 1/2 hour, I have to depart by 6.30am everyday in order for me to not arrive late, which in turn means that I'll have to wake up at 5.30am..Hell, I wonder how long will I take to get used to this kind of hectic life again, since I've been sleeping from 2-3am to 12-2pm for the past few months. Man I'm pathetic.

Anyway, I hope I'll grow up soon as I'm advancing to another milestone of my life. But first, I'll have to strengthen up my communicative skills especially in English as everyone there seems to be so pro in English..wth. I'm certainly not going to be left behind. RAWRRr